Quote of the day...

Always do what you say and say what you think, because those that matter don't mind and those that mind don't matter. --Dr Seuss

My life has changed a lot since June 30, 2006. I was homeless for a month, which was an interesting occurence. Don't get me wrong, I have wonderful friends, who took me, my two kids and my two dogs in so I wasn't on the streets, but not having a home to relax in is quite a defining experience. I learned a lot about myself during that time period. The main thing I learned is how great my friends are. The second thing I learned was how much better I felt to finally be myself again. For 4.5 years, I was told what I was allowed to talk about, what I should be feeling and thinking, and after a while, you forget what you really think and what you really feel. Well I am learning to do those things again. It feels great, but at the same time, it is terrifying. I have lost a lot of self confidence because of that situation I was in for so long...and now it is hard to say what I think for fear of judgement or punishment. I need to take a lesson from Dr Seuss and be true to myself and say what I think, unless the only purpose it would serve would be to hurt someone...

When I look back at the past year, I have mixed emotions. There are sad moments, happy moments and a lot of in between moments. I have no regrets. My life is what it is because of the choices I have made and I am really content with my life right now. Sure I would like to have more money and less bills, who wouldn't; but overall, I cannot complain. I have two wonderful children, who simultaneously drive me insane and keep me from going crazy. I have the two best dogs in the world who love me unconditionally. I have the best friend anyone could ask for and a great circle of friends who are always willing to listen, give advice or have a drink. My sister, dad and mom are the best anyone could ask for. I am a lucky person and am very rich in my friends and family. To me, that is worth more than any amount of money. I wouldn't trade that for all the money I could ever spend.

This is what I am thankful for this holiday season: my friends (new and old); my family; my children; my pugs; my job and education; and finally my freedom! Happy Thanksgiving to everyone. I truly hope you feel contentment in your life. It is truly the greatest feeling to be content with your life.

--Shrimp Girl