Disappointment: a feeling of dissatisfaction that results when your expectations are not realized.
Well things have not been going my way lately and this past weekend was no exception. We did not win our soccer tournament, in fact, we didn't even break out of bracket play. I will not make excuses by going on about how well or badly we played or how bad the referees were, all I can say is that i am extremely disappointed; and for me, disappointment is the hardest pill to swallow. I would rather be mad or hurt or anything other than disappointed. This will sit with me for a long, long time; especially since I don't feel like I did my best. And the worst part is that we cannot redeem ourselves until next year...to be the best team there and not even break bracket is so disappointing.
Well, I cannot change what happened this weekend so I must put it behind me and work on the things that I can control, like my conditioning. In the long run, this tournament will not matter; I guess I need some perspective. I need to realize that it's just a game and that there are bigger and worse problems out there than losing in a soccer tournament...and not passing my orals the first time around...I have 2 wonderful kids and 2 wonderful dogs; I have food to eat and a place to live; I have the ability and opportunity to play soccer; and I have the opportunity and ability to get a higher education. I definitely have nothing to complain about, especially losing in a soccer tournament.
Ok, well I have vented my feelings. Thanks for listening/reading.
Later...
ShrimpGirl
Monday, February 12, 2007
Monday, February 5, 2007
A force of fortune
"Be a force of fortune instead of a feverish, selfish clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy." --George Bernard Shaw
This is my new motto for life...yes bad things are going to happen and life will suck when they happen, but I can either be a 'feverish, selfish clod of ailments' or I can be 'a force of fortune' and work to improve myself and my situation. I am choosing the latter of the two. So even though I did not succeed in my first attempt at my orals and I got a probably very expensive speeding ticket this morning, they are both in the past and complaining about it is not going to change what has happened. All i can do is learn from it, i.e. study more and slow down, and move on...nothing in the world is going to change the events of the past. All we can control is our behavior in the future.
So this is my new revelation. Just wanted to share.
ShrimpGirl
This is my new motto for life...yes bad things are going to happen and life will suck when they happen, but I can either be a 'feverish, selfish clod of ailments' or I can be 'a force of fortune' and work to improve myself and my situation. I am choosing the latter of the two. So even though I did not succeed in my first attempt at my orals and I got a probably very expensive speeding ticket this morning, they are both in the past and complaining about it is not going to change what has happened. All i can do is learn from it, i.e. study more and slow down, and move on...nothing in the world is going to change the events of the past. All we can control is our behavior in the future.
So this is my new revelation. Just wanted to share.
ShrimpGirl
Friday, January 19, 2007
To My Son...
Tyler, I am writing this to let you and the world know that I couldn't be more proud of you for picking up your grades. I know that it took a lot of effort on your part to bring up your grades in such a short time period. I just want to tell you how very, very proud I am of you and that I know you can keep up these good grades. The only thing that could make me more proud is if you continue your hard work and keep those grades at or above the level they are now. The ultimate reward of your effort will be in the pride you feel when you get your next report card and see how your hard work paid off. Please know how much I love you and believe in you and want so much for you to believe in yourself, like I believe in you. I want the world to know how great my son is: he is so sweet, caring, compassionate, which are not easy traits to find in children these days; he is smarter than he gives himself credit for; he has a huge capacity for love; and best of all, he makes my world a better place.
I love you Tyler!!!
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
My trip to Phoenix
Well I am back from my trip to Phoenix. The weather was beautiful. 60 and sunny the entire time. Well Friday morning it rained but cleared out by 10 am...so no big deal. The conference (Society of Integrative and Comparative Biology) was good. A few people from my university went and I met a few really nice people to hang out with. Met a little cutie from Utah who was really interesting and fun. All in all, I had a good time, it was nice to get away, but boy am I glad to be home. There truly is no place like home...having your own bed, the comforts of home, and of course my babies (the two-legged ones and four-legged ones).I got to sight-see a little bit on Friday. But since I has received a fellowship from TCS and the AMS both of which are co-sponsors of this meeting, I had a lot of people to meet. I attended the AMS luncheon where I got to sit next to some pretty big names in the field of microscope research, which was both intimidating and exhilarating.
This is the Rosson House, circa late 1800's. Very beautiful. This is part of Heritage Square, which is adjacent to the Science Museum and History Museum. We had lunch at a Victorian Tea Room in Heritage Square that day. The food was delicious.
This picture is of me giving my talk on Thursday. I was glad to get it over with on the first full day of the meeting. That way I got to enjoy the rest of the meeting without having to worry about my talk. It is always nice to go earlier rather than later.--ShrimpGirl
Just want to share this
Her eyes beginning to water, she went on, "So I would like you all to make me a promise. From now on, on your way to school, or on your way home, find something beautiful to notice. It doesn't have to be something you see it could be a scent-perhaps of freshly baked bread wafting out of someone's house-or it could be the sound of the breeze slightly rustling the leaves in the trees, or the way the morning light catches the autumn leaf as it falls gently to the ground.
Please look for these things, and cherish them. For, although it may sound trite to some, these things are the "stuff" of life. The little things we are put here on earth to enjoy. The things we often take for granted. We must make it important to notice them, for at any time...it can all be taken away."
The class was completely quiet. We all picked up our books and filed out of the room silently. That afternoon, I noticed more things on my way home from school than I had that whole semester.
Every once in a while, I think of that teacher and remember what an impression she made on all of us, and I try to appreciate all of those things that sometimes we all overlook. Take notice of something special you see on your lunch hour today. Go barefoot. Or walk on the beach at sunset. Stop off on the way home tonight to get a double-dip ice cream cone.
For as we get older, it is not the things we did that we often regret, but the things we didn't do. Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
--Anon., "from a story "The Teacher" (A Powerful Lesson)"
Please look for these things, and cherish them. For, although it may sound trite to some, these things are the "stuff" of life. The little things we are put here on earth to enjoy. The things we often take for granted. We must make it important to notice them, for at any time...it can all be taken away."
The class was completely quiet. We all picked up our books and filed out of the room silently. That afternoon, I noticed more things on my way home from school than I had that whole semester.
Every once in a while, I think of that teacher and remember what an impression she made on all of us, and I try to appreciate all of those things that sometimes we all overlook. Take notice of something special you see on your lunch hour today. Go barefoot. Or walk on the beach at sunset. Stop off on the way home tonight to get a double-dip ice cream cone.
For as we get older, it is not the things we did that we often regret, but the things we didn't do. Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
--Anon., "from a story "The Teacher" (A Powerful Lesson)"
Tuesday, January 2, 2007
Good Riddance 2006
“It’s been a long December and there’s reason to believe that this year will be better than the last.”
I am glad to see 2006 go the way of the cassette tapes. Last year at this time my reality was drastically different. There is a saying that 'there are the years that ask the questions and the years that answer them'. Last year asked a lot of questions and answered a few. So I am left with a lot of questions I need to answer. No one can do this for me, I have to do it for me. While there was a lot of heartache and change last year, I was determined to learn from it all. I do believe that I succeeded. Over the last 12 months I have experienced and learned many things about myself. Here are the top 10 things I learned from 2006.
1. That my head is much smarter than my heart.
2. That if you fail to ask for what you want, you are guaranteed not to get it.
3. Sometimes he really is just busy; but if he really wanted to spend time with you, he would find the time.
4. That sometimes my empty bed is a testament to my self-worth and self-respect.
5. How to fight fair and demand respect.
6. How to realize when you are better off without him.
7. That the best summer nights are spent with plastic chairs, cold beer, and great conversation among friends.
8. That I really am a happy person.
9. How to be alone.
10. How to make an incredible cold Mediterranean pasta dish. YUM!!
I am looking forward to the coming year and all that is holds for me. I am going to make a few resolutions and I hope to be able to keep them. The first is to apologize to everyone I feel I need to apologize to. This list is not long, but I am trying to get rid of negativity in my life and therefore I need to apologize for wrongs I have committed against people I care about or work with. The second is to get in better shape. Everyone usually makes this resolution and I am no different. I would like to be able to run up and down the soccer field with more energy and enthusiasm. And finally, the last resolution I will make this year is to be more proactive about my life. If I want to do something, I am going to set out to get it done and not wait on someone to invite me to do it or do it for me. This is kind of vague but I know what it means to me.
I hope that all of you are as excited about 2007 as I am. I truly hope all of you find all of the happiness and love that this year has to offer. I wish you many laughs, hugs and kisses. The kind of laughs that make your cheeks and sides hurt, the kind of hugs that heal your soul and the kind of kisses that take your breath away. These are what makes life grand.
--ShrimpGirl
I am glad to see 2006 go the way of the cassette tapes. Last year at this time my reality was drastically different. There is a saying that 'there are the years that ask the questions and the years that answer them'. Last year asked a lot of questions and answered a few. So I am left with a lot of questions I need to answer. No one can do this for me, I have to do it for me. While there was a lot of heartache and change last year, I was determined to learn from it all. I do believe that I succeeded. Over the last 12 months I have experienced and learned many things about myself. Here are the top 10 things I learned from 2006.
1. That my head is much smarter than my heart.
2. That if you fail to ask for what you want, you are guaranteed not to get it.
3. Sometimes he really is just busy; but if he really wanted to spend time with you, he would find the time.
4. That sometimes my empty bed is a testament to my self-worth and self-respect.
5. How to fight fair and demand respect.
6. How to realize when you are better off without him.
7. That the best summer nights are spent with plastic chairs, cold beer, and great conversation among friends.
8. That I really am a happy person.
9. How to be alone.
10. How to make an incredible cold Mediterranean pasta dish. YUM!!
I am looking forward to the coming year and all that is holds for me. I am going to make a few resolutions and I hope to be able to keep them. The first is to apologize to everyone I feel I need to apologize to. This list is not long, but I am trying to get rid of negativity in my life and therefore I need to apologize for wrongs I have committed against people I care about or work with. The second is to get in better shape. Everyone usually makes this resolution and I am no different. I would like to be able to run up and down the soccer field with more energy and enthusiasm. And finally, the last resolution I will make this year is to be more proactive about my life. If I want to do something, I am going to set out to get it done and not wait on someone to invite me to do it or do it for me. This is kind of vague but I know what it means to me.
I hope that all of you are as excited about 2007 as I am. I truly hope all of you find all of the happiness and love that this year has to offer. I wish you many laughs, hugs and kisses. The kind of laughs that make your cheeks and sides hurt, the kind of hugs that heal your soul and the kind of kisses that take your breath away. These are what makes life grand.
--ShrimpGirl
Friday, December 8, 2006
Its beginning to look a lot like Christmas...
Well, despite the fact that most stores have had Christmas decorations displayed since October, it is finally beginning to look and feel like Christmas. The kids and I had a wonderful night last Friday picking out and decorating the tree. It was a chilly 40degrees outside and we wandered through the tree lot rating trees and coming back to the ones we liked the most. We found a great tree and carried it home. We baked Christmas cookies and listened to James Taylor sing Christmas songs while we decorated the tree. Then we made some hot chocolate topped with whipped cream and watched Elf (Will Ferrell is hilarious in this movie) and ate cookies. It was a great night. Now I feel like its Christmas. That and the kids gave me 2 page "Wish Lists", each!
Work/School is stressing me out, but all I can do is my best. I have finally figured out my answers to the retake exam. So that is one less thing to worry about. However, I just got back my most recent manuscript for revision. Lots of work to do on that. And since I am presenting that paper at a meeting in Phoenix in early January, I must get busy on those revisions.
Aahhhhhh, isn't life grand!!!
--ShrimpGirl
Work/School is stressing me out, but all I can do is my best. I have finally figured out my answers to the retake exam. So that is one less thing to worry about. However, I just got back my most recent manuscript for revision. Lots of work to do on that. And since I am presenting that paper at a meeting in Phoenix in early January, I must get busy on those revisions.
Aahhhhhh, isn't life grand!!!
--ShrimpGirl
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